The creative and the artist are two of the biggest identities that come with imposter syndrome. I went through it, sometimes still do as a product of my conditioning and see it all the time in the creatives I mentor.

Back in 2015, I convinced myself that music and the creative path weren’t for me and I gave it all up. In retrospect, this decision was the culmination of multiple cycles of repressed self expression rooted in low self esteem and an inability to see my true self.

There were times I fell into despair and felt victimised by my creative path because it felt too hard to succeed which led to cycles of anxiety and depression. There were times I tried to force it out of insecurity and impatience that sucked any sort of childhood joy out of the creative process. There were times I felt unworthy of being an artist and outsourced my life force and creative energy to chronic perfectionism, to the lone wolf mentality of thinking I had to do it all alone to stand out, to the belief I thought I had to be famous to be a successful artist, to feelings of shame that I was too old, too late, too selfish, to distracting myself with romantic relationships to fill the void.

In 2016, I became a teacher of yoga and found renewed purpose and meaning in a life of service and a practice I really believe in. What I didn’t expect was aligning to guides, mentors, communities and spiritual philosophies to help me see myself clearly as a creative again.

In 2017, I was initiated onto an uncensored and unfiltered path of raw expression as a process of getting to know my true self, own my creative power and letting it be known. As a fierce mother to my inner artist child we have embarked together on a vision quest, of re-membering her lost parts, nurturing her unique truth and sharing her talents as a gift.

I now have a growing archive of art including my first indie feature film, and began self-releasing music again with soulmate creative collaborators. A theme that has been emerging in my art-making is lending my creative voice to causes that are bigger than me and has given my art a purpose of activist service.

Art is my spiritual practice, it regenerates me, it lifts my spirits, it gives my life beauty, joy and meaning. More than anything, an artist and creative is something I am called to be, it is part of my truth. I feel called to help others claim their true voice, stay the creative path and brave all the obstacles that come with it so they too may live their calling in a society that is distracted from what is truly valuable and makes being an artist really fucking hard.

Being a creative takes spiritual courage. Staying a creative path takes emotional resilience. Having tools, a practice and a support network is key.

It is my mission work to keep setting my own self expression free and nurturing and encouraging other’s creative voices to be the uplifting gift and beautiful revolution we came here to be.

I honour four instrumental teachers and mentors Erin Prichard, Naomi Absalom, Leila Sadeghee, Amy Mabin and every single member of my community who encourage me to stand in my light and power as I do you. Praise our eco-system of creative, spiritual and emotional care that has breathed the life and fire back into my spirit and heart so I may pass this loving act of service onto others.